The Religion of Global Positioning Systems

The first time I rented a car in NY I lost my way a couple of times even when I had access to the best maps. The complexity and number of the smaller streets and my interest in exploring new places influenced my decision to buy a vehicle with a navigation system. I have never regretted that decision as the truck has allowed me to jump on with confidence for any trip. Some of my friends told me that it will disable my ability to understand the city better. In the next few years I found out that they too had bought navigation systems but I am sure that the justification would not have applied to me in the first place. It is always the case. This could have come from a false assumption on how I was going to use my
navigation system or the lack of understanding on the factors that influenced my decision. I never wanted to argue because I did not fully understand the reasons for their conclusions.

The navigation system, as it was integrated into the car, always showed accurate information on when and where to turn. May be the speed at which the car was
traveling would always be taken into account to calculate the time and distance. During many of my long road trips, I had the luxury of taking detours without
even knowing the terrain. Its also true that a couple of occasions, I was directed with wrong way traffic and false destinations but one should be dumb enough
to follow the directions as it is, without considering the conditions.

There could be millions of devices, of different brands, that follow different satellites but the purpose was same. To give directions to move. Those directions
would come in different languages, different voices, possibly through different routes. But an address, a destination, would always be the same. The truth remain
the same. It would be a shame for me, or anybody for that matter, to claim that our navigation system is the better one or the only one. Truly speaking, you will still be good without one.

Easter Bunny

The township library was closed on the day of Easter and I had decided to make my trip to return the books very late in the evening. Although the library was closed,
I could return the books and DVDs through the drop boxes. To make matters simple, there was a drive-in drop box and my daughter was very happy to offer that she will
drop the books and DVDs from the rear seat of the car.


It was really dark and almost 8pm when we reached the library. There were very few lights and not a single person around. From the main road, I took a right turn to the library and proceeded to the drive-in drop box on my left. Suddenly I noticed a small object, around the size of a tennis ball, on the drive way. The impulse was natural and I braked. The alert driver in myself, not the self sitting behind the wheel, somehow knew that this was not something I would expect on that road.


In the seconds that followed, we could figure out that it was a baby rabbit. It was alive but alone. Its eyes did not show any fear and I assumed that it still thought of this world as a safe place. It did not move even in the head lights. I decided to scare it away by moving a little bit closer and ended up with the hood of my vehicle obstructing a clear view of the bunny. My wife was screaming to me to stop and get out.


Myself and Minnu (my 6 year old daughter) got out from the car and closed in on the bunny. My kid was showing signs of joy having the opportunity to spot a baby rabbit in the middle of unexpected circumstances. I am sure that she will have a story to tell her friends after the spring break. I looked around to check whether I could see any signs of its habitat or its mom; with failure.

A question popped up as to whether we should leave the bunny there or take it home. Both had its own dangers and advantages. It was possible that the rabbit was lost or its mom had died/not returned. It was not safe out there in all respects. But at the same time, if the mother rabbit had in fact returned after we took the bunny home, it would be a disastrous situation. We finally decided to leave it to fate. After allowing the bunny to move away from the driveway, we returned home. It is sad that I do not know the end of this story. Probably this incident will help my daughter realize that not all stories end with "happily ever after".


Before bed time, while helping her to brush her teeth, I took it as an example to teach her the consequences of getting lost and the importance of staying together. She held me tight and it occurred to me that the Easter bunny had brought her a present. A beautiful lesson.

Self-Portrait

On 31st of Dec 2008, while having a late breakfast at office, one of my colleagues asked me this question: "What is your new year resolution?". I thought for a moment and realized that I did not have one. The lack of an answer probed my brain for few days and it occured to me that I had not given enough attention to reflect on my life in the past year or was not in a position to give a serious thought to my future plans. I felt a bit disappointed at that conclusion and was willing to spend some time for a better result. Thus the exercise began.

The positives were easy to spot and project. They had been well publicized, either verbally or via pictures such as those in picasa or orkut. It is a bit misleading. Like those flashy life in the screen, be it cinema or television. Real life had its own bumps and troughs. It was not easy to focus on the negatives but this was my life and nobody else cared much than self, and rightfully so, to treat it fair and square.

Investigating deeper, I found that my search of perfection has actually strained and sometimes broken relationships. Perfectionism, I feel, could be a disease. It is not very easy to come out of a habit that is not in blood but mind. My efforts are failing and bringing me to the brink of breaking up. Still I want to give it a try. One last attempt!

God files for Bankruptcy

These are difficult times!

Look at India. The biggest democracy is reeling under terrorist strikes almost every week. The sacred places of worship are being attacked, people getting killed. Its possible that political parties are making hay while the sun is shining. At the same time, it is not easy to forget the confessions of the suspected, whether it is through narco analysis or on their own. Or is it the creation of media only? Fortunately Kerala is not much affected. They prove it with many more hartals and, of course, inauguration of more TV channels (apparently the only way of entertainment for the poor Keralites) almost every day. Very few days are left till the year is over and those are going to be auctioned.

Situation is not different in United States of America, though in a different way. Every morning, there is good news and bad news. Financial institutions are failing like a house of cards and the government is seriously considering to help some. "Whom" is a question currently under FBI
investigation. Certainly this will affect more than those after the 9/11 attacks. This was seen coming though. A nation, under God, indivisible.

Believe me. In this turmoil, there is one place where a lot of recruitment is happening. People who desperately want jobs don't have to be disappointed. The recruitment is done for the protection of religion. Because God himself is in trouble and going through a difficult period. He does not have the power to protect his religion and his stocks are falling. Did he invest in one of the failed banks in America? I am sure that he did not invest in the hearts of the good and wise.

So friends, brothers and sisters, join the recruitment drive. A future awaits you :-)

Ethics

I am confused because some times I do not know what is right and what is wrong. Don't assume that it is a simple issue. In fact, I believe that is much more complicated than it actually is.

I am not very sure whether it is right or wrong to download and watch a recently released movie from the internet. I haven't paid for it but then it is available for free. I do not know whether the site has actually paid for it to show this free or the producer or distributor is getting a share of it. The same is true for the CDs/DVDs that becomes available on the street just after the release. Okay. You might say that they are illegal. I take it.

Look at this. I have rented a tamil movie (on tape) for $1. The shop, to my knowledge, is legal and in in the business for quite some time. Is it legal to watch this movie at home? There is a good chance that the DVD was available (not necessarily for this region/country) and the shop owner has made copies on tape. Or it is possible that source of the movie is from an illegal download/sale (which again is debatable). Lets move on.

I take the rented movie and take it home and my friend and family joins to watch the movie. I rented it, they did not. Is it legal for them to watch it as they did not pay for it? Leave it.

I bought a DVD, watched it and then my colleague borrows it. Is that legal if he watches it? Is it legal if he watches it with his friends/family? Is it legal for him to lend it to one of his colleague or friend?

Using pirated stuff is against my ethics :-) But I download music and listen to it on my iPod. Ilisten to songs online. I distribute songs that I have downloaded. I have no clue how many of that songs are legal and how many of them are illegal. I have no clue on whether the producers or distributors are going to get a share of the advertisement income. Move on.

I think I can't even borrow a book to read whether it is fiction or educational as I am not paying for it. I can't ask for that pen to write. I have no idea whether that was stolen.

I am still confused on whether to publish this. It is just possible that somebody had already wiritten the same. Or at least thought about it. And I will be making a mistake. Let me reiterate. I am confused.

Comparisons Inc.

Its a weekend and as usual I am late to wake up. My daughter who has made a habit of waking up late on weekdays is already playing with her imaginary friends. She must have got up early and that is not unusual on weekends. And she gives an alarm which we used to give her on weekdays. "Daddy. Wake up, its morning". No wonder in the sayings that whatever you give, you always get them back. I miss her calling me "Achey". Probably she found it easier to follow English than Malayalam after coming to US last year. Its survival as I wish to call it.

Its 11am and the phone rings. The number is not familiar and it must be for my wife. Let her pick it up. My friends have stopped calling me long before. There are a few who still keep in touch and thank God for that. It must be my fault to keep as well as lose friends. My thoughts are interrupted by a conversation. Sindhu is in the kitchen and she must be doing parallel processing. What if I eavesdrop? At least I have to know that she is not looking for another man. Otherwise who will look after Minnu? Whatever reasons I wish to make here, there is an emotional attachment that makes me incomplete in her absence. I am afraid of that vacuum where there is no love. Where there is nobody to love me.

"Ha! This is Sindhu! Hm.... Who! Oh...Where are you calling from? I never thought that I will be able to talk to you after we left college? This is pleasant surprise!".

I can't hear who is on the other side. I just love to be on the bed a little more. I have a lot of work to do which I do not want to think about. That includes getting up, brushing teeth, going to toilet, taking a bath. And after that I have to get Minnu brush her teeth, wipe her clean, switch on the DVD player for her to see Dora (and that is the umpteenth time she is watching it) before I start bigger work such as cleaning the house and doing laundry. Thank god. By procrastination, I usually stretch it to 12pm on sunday nights. The conversation is continuing.

"No! We came last year only."
"Suresh got a transfer. Same company."
"Everybody is doing fine."
"Ya. Daughter"
"She is turning 4 this December."
"Going to pre-K."
"No. Its a nearby kids care center"
"Neighbourhood okay. Mostly black and spanish"
"We are thinking about it. Will have to move for a better school".
"Rent is too much. Parking is additional"
"In NY, we can't afford that. You people are lucky"
"Minnu is slowly learning. She is picking up"
"Oh. He learned in just one month? How old is he now?"
"I see. He brush himself?"
"Where? Europe tour? When? I have been telling Suresh. Don't know when".

Oh my god. This talk is becoming dangerous. I must do something. Okay. The phone is powered by internet. Its voice-over-IP.

When I switch of the fan, unknowingly the power to the cable modem is cut off and I slowly moves to the toilet. Let me think about some defense in this loneliness.

Outside, the conversation has ended and Minnu is getting a lesson to brush by herself. A business selling comparisons would be a great idea, I think. There is no shortage of it.

I must make sure that we live our own life.

In the market for ....

Finally I decided to go for it. Everybody in the family was compelling me and the pressure had mounted more than I could handle. I had acquired a license at the age of 18. So the next day onwards, I started looking for the models of the year I wanted. On my journey to work and back I watched my right and left. The search was on.

I had a list of requirements. Color was of top most priority. I wanted to get noticed. Ivory was my first preferance. If all other requirements were met, brown or even black was not a problem. Brand was certainly one of the item in the list. Something that suited my status. Since I started my search a bit late, there were very few available in the market. The more I waited, the best was going with the rest of the world.

I knew that it will add additional monthly expenses but then that is part and parcel of the package. But there are things I would save if I look it from a different perspective. I had to be careful as there was no return policy. I did not have kids then but wanted to accommodate atleast two. I did not want a fully loaded one but I would have liked a lot of accessories. Cash back was welcome. I wanted it first hand even if the model was one year plus or minus. A scratch or two was okay but accidents were out of question. A multi-utility one was always in my wildest dreams. Look and feel was another criterion, mainly front and back. A rear-spoiler was desired but optional. I wanted a navigator to guide me if I got lost. I wanted a smooth noiseless run for years with less maintenance.

"Cut the crap man! Then what happened?"

"I had to forget it as I had a love marriage".

"No! I am asking about the vehicle."

"What vehicle? Oh! I went for a SUV if thats what you are asking about!"